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Four Catastrophic Years
05:30
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Four Catastrophic Years
Excuse me Ma'am, I believe this fell out of your purse / I'll be damned. Of all the street corners in this world / Is that really you? Well how many years can it have been? / You look so damn fine, but then again girl, you always did // Do you remember the year of the fire? / We climbed out on the rooftop as the flames grew higher / I took you by the hand as we crept along the ledge / You kissed me on the lips as we leapt from the edge // I heard you got married and had yourself some kids / In all these years that was something that I never did / Guess I'm still waiting on the right woman to come along / But you and I both know that the right woman has already come and gone // Do you remember the year of the flood? / Do you remember the brilliance of our love? / Shining down like a star from above going supernova / We both knew what was happening to us but by then it was all over // Do you remember the year of the storm? / Do you remember the night we lost it all? / I remember that telephone call that broke your heart / The ground rushed out from under and from that moment on we were freefalling apart // Do you think that you might like to go out with me and get a drink? / No, of course you're right, after all what would your husband think? / It sure was nice to see you again maybe some other time / Don't you worry about me darling, I'm alright, just got something caught in my eye // Do you remember the year of the quake? / The rattling of our hearts as the earth began to shake and tremble / God knows, girl, how hard I did pray, until it hurt / I guess the good Lord didn't quite see things our way and we just crumbled back into the dirt.
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I'm So Miserable
05:40
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I'm So Miserable
I'm so miserable without you / It's all gone to hell back here / It's hard not to think about you / But I know why you had to leave / I'm so miserable without you / I've no way else to spend my time / I thought maybe I'd buy that puppy / That we talked about that time / It could sleep up on your pillow / It's body pressed next to mine / You know, the way you always used to / I guess it's worth a try // Come back to me / Please darling, won't you come back to me? // I'm so miserable without you / that I can't stand to go outside / Everything out there reminds me of you / And of all the reasons why / You're not by my side / No, you're somewhere across town / Having a ball with some other guy / No-one answers when I call and so I stopped on by / I think I heard you sigh / Was he inside? /
I guess it's lucky that I gave you back my key / Yeah, lucky old me / I'm so miserable without you / I've started drinking and getting in fights / You know I split my best friend's lip the other day / When he was only trying to be nice / And I'm so miserable without you / And these books won't do their job / Because no-one looks quite like you / And there's no-one else I want / And I'm so miserable without you / That I keep on getting ill / So I hope you've done your thinking now / And it won't be long until // You've come back to me / Please darling, won't you come back to me?
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What Am I To Do?
06:50
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What Am I To Do?
It's funny how light can make you feel so sad / The very same light that once upon a time made you so glad / It's funny how light can make you feel so sad / I guess I don't really have the right to feel quite this bad // But I do, I'm still in love with you // I was standing on the railway platform, you know, the one across from the kindergarten / And I was sure that I had finally gone done lost my mind / All them kids they were playing in the snow and the sun, it was for shining / This mild blue winter light and I could feel myself take to crying / As the tears they did fall down my only thought, it was of you / All those things that you had said to me and all the things that I had failed to do / All the things that I'd feared so bad and how they all had come true // It's been a year, this fucking year. Has it been a year? // It's funny how light can break your heart / Sometimes it's just easier to lie there in the dark / It's funny how light can break you heart / I guess I always knew somehow darling that one day we'd have to part // Because of what I am. Honey, I'm just a man // Last night I got so drunk, darling I thought I would die / All in a bid to try and rid you from my mind / I was down in that bar where we used to go / I don't know what I was thinking, but maybe I was just hoping that darling you'd show / And we could take us a drink together, some kind of funny final farewell / I ain't been feeling too swell these days darling but this you could probably tell // If only you'd take my calls, you know I feel so small without you / I wish you'd take my calls, or give me back my balls // What am I to do?
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4. |
Burned That House Down
04:12
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Burned That House Down
How many times am I gonna quit you? / How many times am I gonna shout out 'I'm cured'? / How many times am I gonna wake up in the morning with your sour taste in my mouth? / I still want you with my breakfast / I still want you with my lunch and dinner too / I want you two times in the evening. Darling, I wake up every night in a cold sweat about you / You were so splendid / It's no surprise to me how things ended / It's like I was compelled to disappoint you. / It's just one of them things that I do // You were the one that I could rely on / A pillow late at night that I could come home and cry upon / You were my ace in the hole in this house of cards I bet my life on / And now I've burned that house down // I thought this storm would blow over / Hell, I thought I'd learn to stand tall on my own / But you're the chip on my shoulder that I've craved ever since the day I was born / I'm so full of self-pity / You don't have to tell me that it's gotten out of control / I've been drinking since Tuesday, my head is on fire but my body's so cold / I just want to feel something / Tell myself you weren't nothing / God knows that I'm bluffing. Girl, you meant everything to me // You were the one that I could rely on / A pillow late at night that I could come home and cry upon /
You were my ace in the hole in this house of cards I bet my life on / And now I've burned that house down // My resolve is always strongest / The morning after it was weakest / The night-time is such a temptress for a born-again sinner like me.
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We Were Too Young
03:48
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We Were Too Young
We were too young, ain't that what they usually say / When love goes astray and two lovers break / Each other's hearts and that old trouble starts / We were too young, we were too young to understand / What true love really needs, what unconditional really means / Too young to know just how it feels / to spend a lifetime on your knees / Begging, 'Darling please, don't you let my sick heart bleed' // Now we're too old and our love has grown too cold to start again / Now we're too old and our hearts have turned to stone once again // We were too young, we were so goddamned naive / We were too eager to believe that we alone had found the key / To some kind of eternity / And when the heavy weather came / Though our brave hearts they did swell / We did not together stand / And so divided we fell / Oh Lord how we fell.
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Ain't Life Cruel
07:12
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Ain't Life Cruel
I'm cutting you out, out of my heart, my weakest part. / I'm doing it the hard way. I'm doing it all wrong. / I'm doing it the only way that I know how. I want you out. / I'm burning all my photographs. I'm burning all of my clothes. / Burning all those notes that you wrote me, you know I kept all of those. / They say you love me. They say you need me. They say you might be home kinda late / But not to worry. Now what did that mean? Now what could that mean? // In light of what I know now / About that night you stayed out / And when you finally found your way back home you had no underwear on // You've been in there so long now. I let you grow in too deep. / Well, it was all based on the simple premise, darling / That my heart was the only heart that you would keep /
So now I'm taking up my sharpest blade. / You know I read somewhere that the first incision is made / Just below the pain / Yeah, I'm a mess of broken ribs and bruises / Just a patchwork-quilt chest filled with staples and sutures / Ok, I confess that I'm still a damn fool for you / At best I'm a poor loser, I guess. / Ain't life cruel. / While these wounds are healing now baby, I'm confined to this single bed / Trying to keep the source of possible infection from running rampant through my head / I'm feeling so much better now darling that I haven't thought of you for days / My heart can finally keep to its steady beat, that is until my mind strays / And then I want you. And then I need you. And then I can't see the scars that you left behind / Only your baby blues. Yeah, only they'll do. I guess I'm not over you // In spite of all that I've done / To cut you out and move on / A change of heart won't change the simple truth, that I'm still in love with you // Why won't you let me be your man anymore? / Why won't you please just take a chance anymore? / I only want to hold your hand, like before / Just let me show you that I can.
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I'm Giving Up
05:26
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I'm Giving Up
I'm giving up, that's what I said / Can't see no reason to ever again set foot outside of this bed. /
I'm giving up drinking, I'm giving up on all of my friends / Giving up thinking about you, I'm just gonna lie here and wait for the end to come / However that may be, guess I'll just have to wait and see. / I'm gonna give up breathing, if only I can / So that you won't have to be there to tell me that I'm just not that much of a man anymore / I know that score, better than you / Better than you with your 'something to do' and your 'life goes on' / And your pragmatism and your 'best foot forward,' I hope you never hear this song / But if you do // I hope that I'm already gone. // I'm giving up seeing and hearing and feeling and all of that shit / 'Cause if there's one thing I've learned it's that nothing good ever came from it / And I'm giving up talking to everyone about all of my problems / Guess I've finally realised that, hell, maybe I just do not want to solve them / I'm gonna give up calling you in the middle of the night, you're right / You deserve every chance you can get to go on with the rest of your life / A life without me // I guess that's the life you need / Is that the life you need? // Well, I gave up smoking a little while ago / And I'm only telling you this 'cause I want you to know / That I'm able to do whatever it is that I put my mind to / What d'you think, you're the only one who can go out and find somebody new? / The fact that I'm still so alone just means I don't want to // All that I want is you / You're all that I ever want.
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8. |
Old Habits
05:10
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Old Habits
I know that it's over but can't we do it just one more time? / Yeah I know that it's over, I just need to feel a body next to mine tonight / Oh tonight, I really need to feel alright // I know that I'm not allowed to stay all night / And I know that you're not supposed to smile / I just hope that you don't pay it too much mind / If I tell you that I love you as I come inside / Old habits die hard // Yeah, I remember every single word you said, after last time / Things get so complicated in your bed, so let's go back to mine instead / Please don't make me beg, it's the middle of the night / And none of your friends are around to see if you get it wrong or right / I know that I should go out and find someone new / That I can lay myself down beside and slip myself into / A warm, wet dream where you no longer exist / Get myself an hour or so of that utter emptiness // I know that she won't stay all night, and that's alright / No, I don't think the two of you are much alike / I just hope that she don't pay it too much mind / When I tell her that I love her as I come inside / Old habits die hard. // Please don't you remember what it was like lying in my arms? / Sweet bodily surrender as you wrapped me in your charms / Staring into your eyes, I've never felt so whole / With your taste upon my tongue and your fingers clutching at my soul / I love you. // Old habits die hard.
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I Hate You
03:09
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I Hate You
I remember the day that you first said it / From the look in your eyes I could tell that you meant it / You said that you did so regret it / And I told you that I could forgive you but I could not forget it //
It was a year before the end, almost to the day / Or maybe that's just the way I see it now / A sign, an omen, call it a feeling of foreboding / But that's when I knew that you would leave me / That's when I knew that you would leave me behind // We'd just come back to town after a long drive and we were tired / As I was bringing in the bags I noticed something new flashing in your eyes / It was something cold and hard which you did not even try to disguise / I guess I should've backed on out of there but I am not a man inclined to hide / We'd been at each other's throats for days on end / Trying to keep a civil tongue in our heads whilst in the company of our friends / But in this here life there's only one thing on which you can depend / No matter how hard you try everything always goes to hell in the end // It was a year before the day that you walked away / Or maybe that's just the way I see it now / Call it hunch or insight, call it 20/20 hindsight / But that's when I knew that you would leave me / That's when I knew that you would leave me behind // I know that you never did use those words again / But I could always feel it flowing back and forth between us in every moment that we shared / Like a silent knife driven into my spine in every argument we had / I guess that was the one pussycat you shouldn't have let out of the bag / I hate you.
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Goodbye
07:11
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Goodbye
We fell in love in secret on the backstreets of Camden Town / Stealing kisses from each other in the office when the boss was not around / We were making out in late night bars long after closing time / You handed me your heart on a silver platter, darling / So I reached deep within myself and I gave you mine / I was so glad when you said you'd move so I could go to school in my hometown / I didn't want to pressure you, you said you wanted to, you were feeling down / I worked so hard at that new school, I was always there both day and night but I never felt so alive / I know, I know, I know you felt so lonely but I thought you were on my side / Oh Darling, can't we give it just one more try? // No, the timing ain't right / You know it ain't time / Our love just ain't ripe for the picking darling / And I'm so sick and tired of this carousel ride with you // I couldn't speak a goddamn word of this strange new language in this cold new land that you'd taken us to / And I'd dreamt so much of building a new life for us but as usual nothing ever went as planned / I felt so friendless and shut out. In this world I had only you and you had too much to do / I did my best to fight it darling, but in the end I hated your friends and I hated your school and I hated myself 'cause I was losing you / Oh Darling, can't we give it one more try? // No, the timing ain't right / You know it ain't time / Our love just ain't ripe for the plucking darling / And I'm so fucking tired of waiting around on you // You promised me things would get better when you got that break and landed that great new job / But you were so focused on yourself that my love for you just couldn't keep up / I tried to focus on you too but every time I tried you were in a mood, you were like a child / I wanted you to share in my new life but every time I opened up my mouth I got criticised / I know I felt some bitterness when you wrecked my heart / I thought I'd die when I realised we'd never find our way back to the start / I said and did some stupid things that I'd take back if only I could / I'd do it all, do it all differently this time baby, if only you would / Give me one more try, don't let our love die, that's all I ask / I lay myself at your feet, I'm begging of you darling, please won't you take that chance? // No, the timing ain't right / You know it ain't time / Our love just ain't ripe for the picking darling / And I'm so sick and tired of this carousel ride with you / Yeah, I'm so fucking tired of waiting around on your heart / Darling, I'm so tired of saying goodbye to you / So this is the last time, goodbye / I really mean it this time, goodbye / I'm not kidding darling, goodbye / I can't believe we're doing this, goodbye.
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11. |
You've Nothing To Fear
03:35
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Lucas Dawson Sweden
Reviews:
“5 out of 5… a truly impressive record… a great album...One of the 10 best
records of 2010” - Altcountry.nl
“best compared with masterpieces like ‘Blood on the Tracks' and 'Berlin'…one of the most impressive albums in a long time” – Rootstime.be
“Album of the Month” – Le Cri du Coyote
“a gem of an album” - GoodNoise Radio
“Never has heartbreak sounded so palpable” – Nine Bullets
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